It has come to my attention that I smoked three black & mild's in a matter of 30minutes, is that a problem? I think there were some things that I needed to release with that smoke from my lungs, but it didn't make me feel 10 pounds lighter... just smell like a black, which was something I just couldn't get out of my clothes.

But does that make me a smoker? I mean really. They weren't laced with any Mary J or anything, just pure black & mild, on the rocks - hold the lime. I never thought that life could be so bad that I'm taking up smoking (something that I never wanted to do). I've seen lung cancer rip apart families and then I look at myself and it's just something that I don't like, but I can't figure out what it is.



The two vices that I just can't give up right now would be smoking and drinking. I just may drink myself into a stupor, just to get through the night.